This post is entirely from the bottom of my heart and the soul within.
I'm not saying this is going to be the last ever post about you, there might be more if I can't hold it in but this is where I wnat to say for the gazillionth time, goodbye.
I've realised some stuff lately. I still miss you and feel very much same about you. nothing has changed, it's just that i realised, what the hell am i doing here? Waiting for you or am I being mad because you left me? Or am i just simply wasting time? I'm not sure.
For whatever reason you left me, you left me. As simple as that, If you really wanted to be with me, nothing would have stopped you. This is not because I don't understand. I do, I know you have problems, but there's no way a person would leave someone else in such a harsh way. You could have at least talked to me dude. Seriously to save me from all these misery where I am finding happiness in. Or I try to. It's already enough that I'm away from my family, I don't need you to make me feel more lonely.
The truth is, I miss you and I want to be with you. But the reality is, you're not here. Screw all the destiny and fate. Screw hope. It has never made helped me anyways. I'm not giving up on hope, no, I'm just going to stop relying on it.
Let's say,If we were to meet again, we will and i'll leaev it at that. I'm not going to purposely forget you, i will one day, when i meet someone who maeks me feel different again. i'm sure there are a lot of people out there, I just havent meet them.
You're the guy every song reminds me of but i still listen to them.
You're the guy I think of before I sleep.
You're the guy I think of when I see old people, young people, or let's just say eveyrthing.
You're the guy I always want to see and the one that i miss but what can i do? You left me.
I promise myself I'm going to move on adn that one day when you decide to come back, it's already too late. It's always too late. You're on your own and I am as well.
You left me and it's not worth the misery no more. And for whatever reason you will give one day, it's not worth it. How could you dude. My heart's not breaking, i've learnt not to fake heart breaks long ago. I fking miss you and i'm going to move on. Don't decide to love me when I have.
Till then,
pansy(:
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 7:50 AM