I miss you so much Chit Su. =[

Now it's 2:30AM and i can tell i won't be falling alseep real soon. Everyone's asleep and i got nothing to do so i'll just continue blogging. :)

This post's not going to be long. Trust me. =]

I just miss home and the time i spent with my mom,dad,thone,chit su,mabe,ma zar, my lil nieces, my aunts and yes my annoying lil brother.(:

I don't know how to say this but, I'm in like with somebody right now. But i guess he'll never know unless i tell him and it seems impossible. haha, well i'm just happy to see him come online and go offline and casually see him in person from time to time. And boy, when i see him my heart sure skips a beat. (:

Dear you,

You don't know but you make me go la la, and you are very special to me. Be happy you.(:

Love,

me =]

I feel so bored right now, gonna go youtube.(:

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Here i am again, staring into the computer screen. I do this every now and then wasting seconds, minutes and hours of my life. Sometimes, my brain just go blank and all i can do is stare at anything that's infront of me, and most of the time, it's the computer. (:





I've been a lazy bum lately. I could achieve so much more. I could, I could. and i will not give up even there will be so much ups and downs i can tell.(:





It's 1:43am now, and i should happily be sleeping on the bed. But no, i choose to sit on the chair and stare into the computer screen rather than lying on my bed comfortably. What can i say, i am wierd in a way. As i stare i realise a thing or two each day. How people've changed over the past year, and how i've changed. I've learn to cherish the moments, and the people who can always make me smile. Things come and go very quickly, laughters come and go in a second. The world's moving fast and i cant catch up with it. So all i can do is, enjoy the fun while the ride is on. Because, all we can keep are memories.





You never know how much someone means to you until their gone. Well, it's time i let it out. There used to be a person who listens to me, makes me laugh, and makes me smile. I could trust that person in a way i never ever did to anyone. He was my friend, and a brother whom i could relate to. The most patient person i've met, and someone who understood me. He was goofy and wierd in a good way and also has this mature side. One day, he just disappeared from my life and i started to see how much he meant to me. No, it's not because i'm in love with him or anything, it's just felt like a part of me went missing. Since then, i've always felt like something's missing. Lately i've come to realise it was him. It has been so long since i had a conversation with him. Things always seem to be reminding me of him. A voice inside my head always whispered, "you mean nothing to him" but there was this part of me that says loudly "have faith". So i kept believeing old times will come back but just a few days ago, something i saw proved to me that, i really meant nothing to him and that he didnt want me as a friend anymore. It blew up every part of me that second, i could feel myself burning in the rain aand freezing in the sun. I went speechless and numb. But what can i do, the past is the past. I've got to move on with my life, he wasn't my only friend anyways. It's just a little bit too hard to let go of him and accept the fact that our fate's gone when he once was the person who gave me hope.(:





Soulmates are meant to fulfill our dreams and live along life together. And if soulmates were true, he would definitely be one.





So long friend, i'll let you go somehow, but these memories, and your voice inside my head makes my everyday life harder to live. I've got to face reality anyways, well whereever you are, be happy. If you have forgotten me, It's alright coz i should've treated to nicer when i had the chance. But i will smile coz i deserve to. I will find my happiness and so one day if i see you again, i'll be able to say hi with a smile on my face.





P.S. if you were here, i'd be tellng you about the guy i'm in like with. =]





It was a long post, feel so much better now.(:





Till then,


pansy(:
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