"I realised something on the bus ride to school today. You're like the raindrops that I could see but not hear because I was drowned in the music. Then, suddenly, the music stops. That's when I realise, how strong the raindrops were. As small as they are, splashing drop by drop on the ground,they made piercing sounds that I can't deny that there was no rain. Just like how I finally decided to accept this clear truth. To stop denying how important you are to me. They were just small acts that pushed you into my life, yet strong enough to remind me of you every single day."
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 8:18 AM
Monday, April 27, 2009
Only when I fall in love, I'll fall out of love. Ironically.[=
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 5:52 AM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
I'm not wishing terrible things on you. I hope you stay safe, and I hope that the people you are with care about you like I do. I want you to be happy, and I want you to be doing what you love. But I'd like you to never forget me. Maybe it's true what they say; there are those people you encounter in life who you never really get over. No matter how many other better people you meet, people who treat you better and love you better, in the back of your mind, there is always that one person you can't quite completely forget.
Today, went to botanic gardens with ma htate htar. Enjoyed it a lot. We sat/lied on the grass with books and food. H E A V E N. I haven't been feeling this alive or free lately. Today was a refresher. Even if it was just a brief happiness, i liked it. (:
till then,
pansy(:
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 11:01 AM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Today, I did not go to school because the stupid pain started acting up again. Seriously, sometimes i feel like dying because of it. Please go away, please.
I was feeling better and needed some fresh air around 5pm today so went to bedok resevoir to see the sunset. It was beautiful and enjoyed it.(:
Other than that, I miss you. People move on, or they pretend they have. So i'm going to pretend too, for now. But honestly, you keeping popping up in my mind. So i'm just going to live with it. Because you can't just stop bothering me. (:
Just now, this guy came to chat with me, and he sound so much like you. No more tricks please. But i enjoyed talking with him. for the first time, i found someone who can talk to me like you did. Still, no one could replace you love.
I hope you always find a reason to smile. I do.
Till then, pansy(: jotted down by pikaidiota- on 10:27 AM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I'm here again, trying not to write about you. But honestly, my blog is the only place I know that I can let myself free, without annoying anyone. I know this is stupid, to be still thinking about you but I don't think there's anything wrong with it. I just like you, and I'm not waiting for you. It's always been you, always. I just didn't realised. Until I find someone who can finally replace you in my life, I'll still write about you. I'm going to say it again, because you're the closest i have to love.
Anyways, many things remind me of you. Like the song above for example. Here are some of the lyrics that i can really relate to :
Goodbye my almost lover,
Goodbye my hopeless dream,
I'm trying not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you ,
Should've known you'd bring me heartache,
Almost lovers always do.
And these are the truth from my heart, be happy. I want you to be.
You let go,so now its my turn.I can accept that,but when i find happiness,don't decide you love me.
Being with you is so dysfunctionalI really shouldn't miss you,but I can't let you go
there's a part of me that will be in love with you for the rest of my life no matter whom I'm with.
everyday i have to fight back the urge to text you, or call you, telling myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.
if i could have a dance with you,i'd pick a song that never ends
sometimes the hardest thing to let go of is the one thing you never had.
I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I do not have.
No one can accuse you of falling in love with the wrong person if inside you know he is the one.
Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.
You're my favorite hope,my favorite try.You're my favorite letdown,my favorite goodbye.
I swear it's you that I waited for,I swear it's you that my heart beats for.
Till then,
pansy.(:
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 8:14 AM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
You never know what you had until it's gone, and you never know what you really want until you're alone. I haven't really changed, but I'm not the same person. Being alone makes you get wiser or just insane, but maybe I'm both?
Been missing school a lot lately and i don't like it. From now on, i'm going to try my best to be at school. I hope my health thing is going to be fine.:)
Anyways, going out with my soulamate tomorrow, finally. I've been locking myself in my room for quite some time already.
I seriously don't have anything to blog about at all. Just that i'm obsessed with family outing a korean variety show right now. :D
If i continue blogging i know what i'm going to write so i'm going to stop.
