This is not how I planned it to be, I can't breathe even when my chest is moving up and down,
I can't feel my heart beating even when I know it is.
I don't know if I'm just used to the pain since it's been so long,
There's really no one to blame,
but this is not how it's supposed to be.
You leave my mind every now and then,
but you're usually always there.
And it's when every single thing reminds me of you,
and im supposed to hate it but i enjoy it.
It's when i keep seeing you everywhere i look,
and supposed to feel sad but i smile stupidly.
It's when i turn back to find someoneelse,
when i thought it'd be you and I giggle to myself.
It's when I dream of you even when I'm awake,
and I'm supposed ot sleep but i choose not to.
It's when i find happiness in this sadness,
and it's when i know you left me for me,
and i can't deny the fact that i,
".."
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 2:09 AM