Humans amaze me. Seriously. There are so many reasons why humans amaze me but I'm just going to touch on one point today.Things that humans want. And let the "model" human be me.:)
Humans will always have things they want. Mostly they are non-living things. Such as the latest phone model or the latest whatever. I have them too. Lately i've been waiting for my Canon D60. :)
Sometimes, humans, being the amazing living things they are, they desire something more than those non-living things that everyone wants. Some may desire love, revenge, care, kindness, a boyfriend, kids, husband, wife and etc. The list goes on. I've learn something, human beings are selfish creatures. Some maybe more selfish while some may be less. But they are all selfish creatures, in different ways. Sometimes selfish doesn't always mean bad. We're all just built this way. When you want a boyfriend for example, you're being selfish. The reason is simply because *you* somebody to talk to, *you* want somebody that cares about *you*, *you* want somebody that loves *you*. It's just you you and you. But there's always a give and a take in a healthy relationship so when one person is taking advantage of the other person, the relationship might not really work in most cases.
Back to me, I have a weird/impossible list of wants. Firstly and very badly, i want him. That's not very weird or impossible because at least i know him right? (:
Then i have this huge gigantic obsessions for hot guys in dramas, movies and even books. I tend to fall in love with these characters for the things they say or do in the movies. And yes also because of the way they look. Very huge part. People are selfish in different areas. In my case, I'm selfish in the part where I want somebody who's like those guys I'm obsessed with. This is not a healthy obsession. It's simply because i know i'll never have them but still i long for them. I spend long hours looking at their photos and movies and i even read news about them. The worst part is that i know i will never have anything like them, ever. It's like when we write essays or compos. The grammer may be perfect but if you are writing out of point, what's the use? Similarly, I'm doing everything i can to know about them, but at the end what do i end up with? Disappointments. I should not be took hooked on to this. I should just remember that they are jsut acting out what's on the script, They aren't really like that in reality. Watching them makes me smile and kind of gets my mind off somethings i don't want to think about. It takes me away from reality for a while and i need that sometimes. We all have some kind of drama in our lives. Let it be between families,friends or lovers. But somethings, we can do nothing about but just live with that fact forever. It's a real bad feeling. So an escape from reality by drooling over a hot tv character askign for much? I don't think so. ;)
But what can i do, this is what i love to do and this is what makes me both happy and sad. If i want that happiness, i must be willing to take the consequences that follows. Which in my case the consequences are the never ever fulfilled dream of mine. But someday, i hope i fall in love. Just so that i will stop this obsession. When i mean fall in love, it's when both the guy and the girl are in love with each other. I'm not talking about one sided love. So until then, i'll just continue my miserable days being obsessed with living things i can never get. It's worse than wanting a non living thing.
Call me weird, call me anything. I don't really mind. We all have different things we love and that's just us. For me, one of the things i love to do is daydream. Which in other words mean i'm most of the time in la la land.(:
At the end of the day, we're all that we have, no matter happy or sad, it's our responsibility to make the next move. To take the next step, to make wise choices and learn from our mistakes so that, we'll be able to live our life to the fullest with at least all the happiness we try to save for ourselves. ;)
till then,
pansy.(:
Humans will always have things they want. Mostly they are non-living things. Such as the latest phone model or the latest whatever. I have them too. Lately i've been waiting for my Canon D60. :)
Sometimes, humans, being the amazing living things they are, they desire something more than those non-living things that everyone wants. Some may desire love, revenge, care, kindness, a boyfriend, kids, husband, wife and etc. The list goes on. I've learn something, human beings are selfish creatures. Some maybe more selfish while some may be less. But they are all selfish creatures, in different ways. Sometimes selfish doesn't always mean bad. We're all just built this way. When you want a boyfriend for example, you're being selfish. The reason is simply because *you* somebody to talk to, *you* want somebody that cares about *you*, *you* want somebody that loves *you*. It's just you you and you. But there's always a give and a take in a healthy relationship so when one person is taking advantage of the other person, the relationship might not really work in most cases.
Back to me, I have a weird/impossible list of wants. Firstly and very badly, i want him. That's not very weird or impossible because at least i know him right? (:
Then i have this huge gigantic obsessions for hot guys in dramas, movies and even books. I tend to fall in love with these characters for the things they say or do in the movies. And yes also because of the way they look. Very huge part. People are selfish in different areas. In my case, I'm selfish in the part where I want somebody who's like those guys I'm obsessed with. This is not a healthy obsession. It's simply because i know i'll never have them but still i long for them. I spend long hours looking at their photos and movies and i even read news about them. The worst part is that i know i will never have anything like them, ever. It's like when we write essays or compos. The grammer may be perfect but if you are writing out of point, what's the use? Similarly, I'm doing everything i can to know about them, but at the end what do i end up with? Disappointments. I should not be took hooked on to this. I should just remember that they are jsut acting out what's on the script, They aren't really like that in reality. Watching them makes me smile and kind of gets my mind off somethings i don't want to think about. It takes me away from reality for a while and i need that sometimes. We all have some kind of drama in our lives. Let it be between families,friends or lovers. But somethings, we can do nothing about but just live with that fact forever. It's a real bad feeling. So an escape from reality by drooling over a hot tv character askign for much? I don't think so. ;)
But what can i do, this is what i love to do and this is what makes me both happy and sad. If i want that happiness, i must be willing to take the consequences that follows. Which in my case the consequences are the never ever fulfilled dream of mine. But someday, i hope i fall in love. Just so that i will stop this obsession. When i mean fall in love, it's when both the guy and the girl are in love with each other. I'm not talking about one sided love. So until then, i'll just continue my miserable days being obsessed with living things i can never get. It's worse than wanting a non living thing.
Call me weird, call me anything. I don't really mind. We all have different things we love and that's just us. For me, one of the things i love to do is daydream. Which in other words mean i'm most of the time in la la land.(:
At the end of the day, we're all that we have, no matter happy or sad, it's our responsibility to make the next move. To take the next step, to make wise choices and learn from our mistakes so that, we'll be able to live our life to the fullest with at least all the happiness we try to save for ourselves. ;)
till then,
pansy.(:
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 6:42 AM