I don't hate you.
I don't love you.
But you meant something to me.
No, i don't cry over you.
Why would i?
All you ever did was made me smile.
Until, you suddenly decided to block me out of your life.
Without a goodbye, without a reason.
You were my friend, a very treasured one.
But i'm fine without you, i'm happy.
Somehow, i can't let you go.
Somehow, i can't let go of the fact that you ignored me without a reason.
You are his friend, a friend of somebody i care a lot about.
All of this, sums up to one word that i want to say,
WHY????
if i ever had the courage, i'd go up and ask right into your face.
I'd tell you everything i wanted to say.
You left too soon, i had so much left to say. No, you're not dead so just stop this freak show and relieve this pain inside of me.
It hurts so badly, i hve so much internal screams i cant let go.
I don't like talking about you because it brings back beautiful memories of us that i can never get back.
I miss talking to you, I really do.
Can we just stop this? please?
When i told you, that at one point, everyone's going to hurt me in one way or another.
You said, yeah they will, but i won't, believe me that, because you're like my sister.
Bullshit, seriously, you think this is not hurting me? you think this is not called hurting?
Whatever you've done, I would still smile at you when i see you, i would still talk to you nicely if you ever talked to me again.
But inside, there would be so much internal screams and i just know, things aren't going to be like they used to be. And it sucks.
Ily ihy urghhh.
pansy
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 10:47 AM