Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Yayyyy i pass chem :D Although i didn't *score* i'm glad i passed for a paper i thought i failed. Now my only worry is physics. :S

Anyways i just got back a essay i wrote about a month ago. I don't know why but i like the way i wrote it so i'm going to post it here.(:

My ideal future

An ideal future, to me, means the model future i would like to have but we do not usually get what we want in life. For this essay, I would like to forget that we do not get what we want and just focus on my imagination.

I would like to have a future without worries and anxieties.(Although i know it's not possible.) It is so hard worrying about the outcome of our own actions and also for what is to come tomorrow. Without worries, I can have a more carefree life. After getting a carefree life, I would like to live in a country where the weather is cool. I have been living in a hot, humid and tropical country my whole life, so for a change, living gin a cold country would be nice, especially for a girl like me who perspires even when i am not doing anything at all.

For the past two years, i have been living in SIngapre, away from my family, my friends and even the mango tress i planted, but most importantly i am far away from my home. If my future can be whatever i want it to be, i can imagine living with my family again. I do not want any new house or a huger castle or something grander, but just the house i left behind to follow my dreams. The house where i owned my first pet dog and most importantly, the place where i stated my breathing session which is commonly known to human begins as life.

My ideal future would include me turning my dreams to reality. I have always been interested in photography, music,poetry and basically any from of art. I would definitely want my career to involve one of my interest so that i can be happy and proud of what i do. I want to live my life according to my own rules and beliefs. I want my future to be in a world where peole understand and forgive each other. To add to that, i want my future to have people who actually listen when i talk.

Lastly, if only we can bring our past back to our future, I would like to do so. There were many moments, things, or even people that i want to hold on to but i did not. I do not really care about things,but there are certain people i would have never let go of if i ever had the chance again. In my ideal future, i would like to relive some of my past moments that i have truly learnt to cherish.

I do not wish for anything spectacular or grand, just to live an ordinary life with the people that i love most in the place call my home doing the things what i have learnt to cherish. That is the ideal future i would like to have. This does not mean i do not dream big. I do have gigantic ones, but even if they never came true, i am happy with who i was, who i have become and the person i will be.

There goes my essay. I didn't write it just for the sake of writing it, i wrote it because i want to.(:


After reading this again, I really have learn to cherish some people truly. If i had the chance again, i would have never let go of them. But i guess i cant.


Dear you,

you are one special person i will cherish.(:


love,
me.


till then,
pansy(:




jotted down by pikaidiota- on 12:54 AM