Tired day. But good to know that i passed Science. That is such a relief. (:
Don't feel like going to school tomorrow but i will for the sake of looking at Mr.Chiu getting the best hair award.haha,(:
Can i write a long post? I bet i can. So here goes.(:

Today, my english teacher read us a story. The title was "Reach for the flower". It's actually a children's book. And how do i know that? Because i read it last year around this time, at Kinokunia.(however you spell it.[:) For those of you, who knows my friendster, the book's is one of the pics. Since it was last year, i guess it's at the very end of my photo albums. =]

When i read it last year, i loved it, it somehow gave me hope. But i have long forgotten about it until today. Although it's a children's one, it carries such a deep meaning really. I recommend everyone to read it. It's short and enjoyable. :D

Anyways, after that Mr.Cher talked to us about love, life and la la. Somethings she said were quite true. It made me realise something.

Good times come and good times go just like that. Happy times will end, sad times may come, happy times may come back, they may not. My point here is simply that, nothing lasts forever. They just don't. So cherish those times you love while they last and when sad times come, look back at them and be happy that they once happened in your life. After all, memories are all that we can keep.

Today, surprisingly, the word "love" has been on my mind. I usually don't like to use it, since i seriously don't know what it's about.(: But I'm sure it's a feeling. Just like any other feeling, i believe love can fade away at some point or another. It's quite a destiny i must say if 2 strangers reach to "till death do us apart" stage. Maybe it's possible, i don't know. I'm not even in love yet, as far as i know. I do have a big obsession on someone right now. Obviously, but I'm not going to take that risk to say that I'm in love, just yet. Feelings are just temporary. Do they become permanent? Maybe they do, or maybe not. I have absolutely no idea.(:

I used to believe love existed. It was all because of these two couples around me. They seemed so perfect for each other. Don't usually get into fights, understand each other and care for each other. They were my ideal couple. If i had a boyfriend one day, i told myself, i'll definitely try to be like them. Oh one day i found out, their feelings just faded away. I was the saddest person, trust me. I kept asking myself, why why why?? One couple lasted for 4 miserable years and the other couple lasted for 2 miserable years. They seemed long enough for me to think that they are going to get married some day. But i guess they did not. I asked them why? I got 2 answers. One was "because the feelings just faded away pansy. It didn't feel like the early days of our relationship anymore." The other answer was "there were too much differences, it's better we live our own lives." Only then, i stopped believing in happily ever afters.

It's just a feeling after all. Life comes without guarantees. Yes, some lucky people are gifted with this thing called "true love". I'm not saying they don't exist. They do. It's just that, I'm not going to believe in it unless it really happened to me. Which i doubt it, very much.(:

Anyways, read that book. It really is nice.(:
And those of you who are in love right now, please don't get offended by me. :D Who knows your love might be the next thing that made me believe in love again.

Hey you,
I miss you. My feelings just might be temporary but I'm sure while it lasts, i'll love you like no one ever did. If only you knew. Why? Because you fascinate me,If only you knew.(:
Love,
me.

And yes, i used the word love finally. Let's hope he knows.(:

till then,
pansy(:
jotted down by pikaidiota- on 1:53 AM